November 25, 2014

25!!!


 
 
Happy Birthday to me!! I am officially a quarter of a century old today!!
 
I posted My Boo by Usher because that song brings back so many damn memories for me! I cant believe how fast time flies by.
Never in a billion years did I think I would be where I am today
 
A Wife, Mom, Daughter, Grand Daughter!
 
I have  had one hell of a ride these past 25 years and I like to think that I have driven one heck of a road! I have smiled, cried, screamed and so much more.
The people who have come in and out of my life have made me who I am today.
 
In these first 25 years of my life I have accomplished the impossible and that is overcoming my first heart break.
 Losing the best friend who I thought couldn't be replaced.
 Meeting the love of my life.
Moved out of my parents house.
Started a career only to find my true calling.  
Gave birth to the most amazing son.
Married my best friend.  
 
What I have learned over the past 25 years is that no matter what you always have yourself. You are a temple and you have to take care of it!
 
 I lost track of myself for awhile and needed to overcome the impossible to become a better me. I have had many people scar me and always tell me negative things, but I have always stood down and took the nastiness the world throws at you. Growing up as an only child you have to have a tough skin.
 
No I didn't ever want brother and sister, you can stop asking, no I wasn't lonely, I had my animals and cousins. Being an only child only makes you a stronger person. You are born alone and leave the world alone so you really don't need siblings to make you a better person. However I did have my Sissy.
 
My cousin is my back bone we have withered a storm and I was the fire and she was the rain, but no matter what we somehow always came together and  bring out the best in one another. God didn't make us sisters because he knew nobody would be able to handle us together so he made us cousins. I love her like no one else could she is my number one support system even if she needs to slap me ever know and than, but she can make me laugh like no one else can.
 
I also had a mom and dad who supported me no matter what even tho we always didn't see eye to eye. My dad to this day is so proud of me. He is always proud of me no matter how small the accomplishment. My mom we have our ups and downs, but no matter what she is my mom and loved me and I love her even tho she is a big ol pain in my butt. Shoot I remember her when she was 25 that was LOOOONG time ago hahaha just kidding.  
 
I always thought at 25 I would be accomplished and be some hot shot I am not, but I seriously have the best title anyone could ask for and that is wife and mom. My husband and me met when I was still a baby. I say baby now because back than I thought I was an old ass lady. I was only 18 HAHAHA we meet young. I am glad I found him he loves me unconditionally even tho he drives me nuts he is the reason I am able to do what I love and that is be a stay at home mom. I couldn't read have my blog or be a stay at home mom with out him.
 
I had my son at a young age and I wouldn't change that for anything even tho I wasn't a teenager I still was young. He is my everything he is my mini me stubborn and bossy. I am Mrs. Bossy pant but he is MR.BOSSY pants. That little boy is the greatest gift that was blessed upon me in these 25 years. I thank god every day for him. My little man is what I live for.
 
If you told me when I was 5, 10 , or even 15 that I would be turning 25 and my Gramps would not be here as I turn 25 I would have laughed in your face. My  Gramps was young so there was no way I would have believed it. But as the clock clicks closer towards November 25th I have to realize that he isn't here. That maybe in some odd way in the first 25 years of my life that I was supposed to feel what loss was and for it to make me stronger. I am stronger than I have ever been. I am comfortable in my own skin, with where I am at and with what I am doing and I think that maybe just maybe its the way it is supposed to be.
 
I have no idea what the future holds for me in the next 25 years. I can tell you that I will make sure to take care of myself a little bit better. Not care what others think and live the life that I want. I cant do any different.
 
I am Ashley born a stubborn girl and can be anything I want.